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Ready to take on the world?
By Tetra on 2004-04-29 18:29:18
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Ok so there's not really much to talk about really.
I've been coping with all the work from Massey, and even though I rant and whine about it a lot, the work isn't all that bad. All I have to do is hear about JD's working week before I'm back to thanking my lucky stars that I'm still at uni!
So yesterday I presented a 40 minute presentation to the class about Creational Design Patterns. And to tell you the truth, I was literally shaking in my boots! I hate public speaking with a vengence. So that's why I always find it amusing when people say that I'm a pretty good speaker. Ha ha ha. Well anyway, the fear and nerves kicked in on Monday and Tuesday was just hectic with me trying to write up my presentation notes and practicing in my room until 12:30am Wednesday morning. Nevertheless, I think the presentation turned out pretty well *gives huge sigh of relief*. I feel giddy at tackling something as horrible as a 40min seminar... but *touch wood* hopefully the other 3 presentations I still have to do will be just as successful!
Anyway, what sparked this entry was a recruitment presentation on Tuesday for Unisys. It was pretty much exactly like last year's presentation, only this tiime the stuff was sinking in because the it was aimed at graduate students for 2005. So the Unisys presenters are spouting all this great stuff about the company (all-the-while I am reading between the lines : "we are slave drivers!") and I'm thinking that this might be where I'll be working next year.
This scares me.
The idea of working for some huge corporate company and being resposible for developing systems for big companies terrifies me. But then I see JD working and he's just taking it all in stride (and having fun all at the same time). So I'm thinking that maybe it wouldn't be so bad.
I've always fancied myself as being a pretty fast learner. I mean, I started out doing this degree with no idea whatsoever of what "programs" or software development was... and here I am now, making 40 minute presentations to the class about design patterns!
One of the things I'm really learning with this degree is the whole "group work" thing. And this isn't just the "do an assignment in pairs" thing. This is the fully-fledged "design a software product/system in a group in 13 weeks". I've kinda developed a taste for leadership roles for these small projects. And because I'm just a perfectionist I tend to dabble with everything so I'm lucky to have experience across a wide area in software engineering. I would like to work in an area where I think my best skills lie - and that's HCI/User interface design from a software perspective.
Well anyway, I've blu-tacked the Unisys flyer to the side of my computer for now. Enrolments for the graduate course are due in by May 13th. I'm still not 100% sure if I want to work at Unisys. But as JD says, it would be neat since his work is right next door to Unisys and to be able to meet up for lunch.
I really miss always having JD around all the time. It has been kinda hard even tho JD tries to come up to Palmerston to visit every 2 or 3 weeks. I don't go out *ever* anymore because... well my friends aren't really into the whole clubbing scene (not that there's an good bars in Palmy anyway!).
So I've been feeling like a hermitt because most of the time I find myself sitting in my room in front of my computer. Very boring life I lead. I've also had some shaky moments with JD - usually when I've been having a blue day from Massey work or life in general. But it's also when he's been telling me about going out getting drunk with his friends and I can't help but feel angry and depressed. I feel insecure when he goes drinking because I've never been away from him for such long periods and I'm scared that something will happen and *poof* it'll be all over. That's 2 years down the drain and bye-bye to the best thing that's ever happened to me.
But I know he loves me very much and he's even offered to never go out drinking if it will make me happy. But I don't want JD to become a hermitt like me and I want him to go out and have fun. This is the only time you'll get to party while you're young so you should enjoy being able to go crazy and just have a blast!
I'm planning to move to Welllington and get a job next year so I can be close to JD. I'm absolutely clueless as to where I'll be living/who I'll be living with. I guess I'll just have to deal with it when I get there. I'm still not sure about the whole living with your partner thing. I've heard all the stories about couples that just get sick of seeing each other all the time and fall out of love.
I'm praying for that divine light to tell me what I should do the future but I think I'd be waiting for a long time...
Better prepare a CV to send off in the meanwhile
Au revoir!
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Comments: 4
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Re: Ready to take on the world?
Posted By: Tetra on 2004-04-29 18:39:03
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Hmmm... new blog style. More reflective and less tacky emoticons - let me know what you think.
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Re: Ready to take on the world?
Posted By: Tetra on 2004-05-11 16:55:09
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An original blog? My blogs are alway original! Hehehe
Errr... tv series? Omg... you think my life is a soap opera! *cries*
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Re: Ready to take on the world?
Posted By: LesTaT on 2004-05-16 14:47:46
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ummmmm..... hey you got me all wrong...  what i meant by nice to have an original blog did not include your other blocks.... i meant of all the other blocks...the more recent ones...those blogs that described tv series or something like it.... i don't know if you read any of them .... anyways your blogs are always a treat and i always enjoy them... 
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